Issues

These are things I've been having a lot of recently. My notably I'm having head-butting issues with my parents about what I want to do after this semester. I did decide to dump the geo major, because they basically implied that purse-strings will get pulled if I do go for it, and there's no way I can save up enough money for what I want to take and a place to live and car insurance.

I think I mentioned the issues I was having with them and this biochem award thing. If not, a brief recap: I got the notice on Tuesday and we had to RSVP by like 5 PM, and I don't come home til almost 8, so I just RSVP'ed for myself. Well, they didn't like that. My dad told my mom something along the lines of "when I was laying in the hospital bed dying, I decided I wanted to live so I can see these moments in my children's lives". So that's nice, now as a prerequisite for keeping a parent alive, I have to perform to the standards I've always performed. It's not enough that I have to basically torture myself, but now I'm supposed to give my dad life support? Wtf?

My parents are the kind of people who like to be "supportive" by which I mean thrusting themselves into every aspect of my life. And I am insanely private. I hate the kind of recognition that these awards bring because my parents want to inquire about it then make a big deal about it. When I get these things, what I REALLY like is the recognition of my professors that they think there's something particularly outstanding about what I've done. I don't care about beating out other classmates and I don't like to gloat about these things...publicly. Privately, as in this blog, you can tell I'm proud of what I've done, but everyone else exaggerates it.

I think there's a lot of tension going on because I've been home for so long, because I'm stressed, and because I really want to be on my own, but don't have the financial means to do it.

What they now want me to do is take nothing but my thesis class in the fall. I find this incredibly unreasonable for several reasons. #1: I'm going to be paying for the vast majority of my fall tuition. I've figured that with this summer's work schedule, I should be able to save up about $3000 for tuition, which will be around $4000 in the fall. I'm planning on getting a third job over the summer, so maybe I can get more. Only problem is that I can only work Sundays I think.

Right now, this is my modified schedule:

August 11-15: Nutrition for Health Science Majors
August 18-22: Principles of Flow Cytometry
Regular Semester: Molecular Biology, German II, History Thesis, Aristotle, Advanced Nutrition, and a basic computer science class.