Salvation?

So today is the last day of my really hard week. Actually, my hardest week of the semester, with possible exception to finals week. The thing baout finals week though is that you don't have any other classes, you just take tests, and this week was all about tests+essays+finals+normal life.

Finals week is looking close, suddenly. Every week between now and the end of the semester is occupied by little things, like two tests or one test and a quiz or a quiz and an essay, something in that regard, almost every week of the semester.

However, very little of this phases me at all right now. I'm at that stage where I simply have to recover from this week and prepare for my GRE this coming week.

There is a really dark spot in the sky, well, actually, two. I have my P-Chem quiz still today, which promises to be a little bit easier than all of my other ones because this was stuff I did back in high school chemistry. However, it again is multiple choice, so I'll probably end up getting like a 30%. I seriously need to get an A on this quiz if I have any hope for the rest of this semester. ANY hope depends on success today. We get to drop two of our lowest grades, and my five grades so far are 100, 95, 83, 83, and 75. I totally need another 100 on that list. I need it.

The other darkness right now is Spanish. I have to turn in a goddamn abstract for my research paper on Monday, and I barely have an idea of what I'm going to do. I've been so absorbed with this last week that I have not had time to even think about Spanish, which I am forced to do the second that today is over.

I'm skipping everything after 1:00 next Thursday in cramming for the GRE. I'm locking myself in my room and not coming out, for anything, except one hour of Grey's Anatomy, which I am happy to report, is on an upswing again. This makes me generally happy.

In the last twelve hours, I have affected a great change, I think. I did something that I've been wanting to do for the last three years, and it looks like I might be experiencing a new refocusing of things in my life. I am totally hoping for this to carry on like a wildfire, burning and destroying every resemblance of that which I am trying to discard. More to come later, hopefully. All I can say is that I am at 8 hours and counting on this new change, hoping that it carries into the rest of my life. If I can make two weeks, I should be good for months, if not years.

With this new refocusing comes the opportunity for newer academic successes and a refocusing of my energies on what really matters: getting my A's and feeling the grip of success again.

SPEAKING of which, I am happy to report that in at least two classes, I have now passed 50% in guaranteed grades. This simple amount is astounding. Genetics is currently my highest grade, with a 56.65% guaranteed grade, with some possibility of this climbing OVER 60% IN THE NEXT WEEK. This would be my first guaranteed passing grade of the semester, and a fantastic contribution to change. In two weeks, I will have hopefully even greater news to report with regards to genetics, because an A on the next test will push me deeply into guaranteed C territory, possibly as high as a 77%. This is without even taking the FINAL EXAM. A 77%. damn. I have to say it.

I'm good.

My methods class is really close to a guaranteed D as well, of course, we all know how unacceptable D's are.

History is around 50%, depending on my grade on this paper, which is not going to be as good as my last one.

I know a lot of people think Al Gore has done great things for the whole global warming cause, but I don't think he deserved the Nobel Peace Prize. I mean, that prize should go to people who do great social justice things, and I don't think that his sort of hypocrticial works (if he's using private jets to fly--making carbon dioxide and all kinds of fossil fuel emmisions, I call that hypocrticial) are equal to what the people in Iraq, Myanmar, Lebanon, and pretty much all of Africa are trying to accomplish. If I had a say, I would give the prize to all of the people fighting for peace in their respective countries and order the money be donated to reputable charities.