Advances

So, on the front of monkey tossing. I made two major things happen that will help me so much to breaking free of the monkey. First, I set up a private journal where I could be totally honest about my problems, my motivations, my disappointments in myself, everything that led to last Friday. Second, I went through the house and got rid of everything that I could use to indulge in monkeying. I made a promise to myself also not to subject myself to the triggers that tempted me to embrace the monkey. So that's good. Someday, I may make all of those posts on my private blog public, just so other people who are facing the same problem might benefit from my experience, and I may be more direct about what the monkey is, but until I am able to shake it, I have too much shame and embarrassment to tell anyone. When I break it forever, I'll tell the world. But until then, I don't want to take any chances.

I think I've finalized my schedule for this fall. Very simple stuff, really:
Principles of Flow Cytometry
Molecular Biology
History of Russia to 1860
History Thesis
International Environmental Politics
German II
Italian I
French III

Only 28 hours, 3 before the semester starts and three REALLY easy classes. So I only have 12 hours to worry about. Better than this semester where I have to worry about 15 hours all the time.

My whole "I'm going to do so much homework" thing is not panning out as well as I would have liked. So far, I have my biostats and biochem tests studied for, and about 4 slides on my bioseminar presentation, basically only the background to the research. I'm supposed to have 25 minutes of presentation material, and I'm probably going to have 30-40. I might be able to get more.

What I really have to do is to write another draft of thesis. Ugh, too much.
Stupid thesis. I hate theses.