Only 3 months to go?

So today marks the point where 100 days remain between today and the end of this semester. I feel like such an amount of time is such a great distance that I may never make it to the end. Indeed, with 22 semester hours and about 20 hours of work a week, I am at the virtual end of my rope.

I had a really good idea for the research we're doing in the lab (I think), but I have not heard anything in recent weeks.

I decided for my biology seminar presentation, I'm going to present the article on bees that I did for my methods in immunology class last semester. The thing with the other class was that I presented something different (like what I would do if I was a researcher, not so much what the actual research was). That's a comfort, because now I don't have to think about what to do for that class, and I can soon make an outline for a presentation, and then slowly make a presentation. Then I don't have to worry about the class again, basically, until I give the presentation.

I did a lot of homework for school, not so much for work, this weekend, as I've gotten mostly caught up on the school department. For the rest of tonight, I can have the opportunity to knock out maybe 3 or 4 resources, followed by a similar number tomorrow. I have an outline of my thesis work, and every time I finish a book, I get to highlight it, and it's incredibly exciting. Actually, the more research I do, the more I get the feeling that I'm getting somewhere with my thesis and I can get some idea of how the whole evolving will work out. I have a good feeling that I'll have a finished draft by the time May comes, but I just am not sure it will be good enough to earn an A. I'm a biologist now, not a philosopher. My ideas are not good ones. They're just ideas with little logic and less convincing.

This week looks to be kinda meh, mostly because of my biochemistry exam on Wednesday, for which I MUST study more than I already have done. Next week is even worse because I'm supposed to have another ten pages of my thesis done by next Wednesday on top of the three tests I have on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. The scary thing is that I have so much stuff due between now and Spring Break, and that's only six weeks away.

I kind of feel like crying when I think about my life.

I must admit that I've been feeling a certain amount of confusion about what I should do next year, partially because I have so little that I HAVE to do. I mean, I've already taken my GRE's and did acceptably on them. I'm not doing the Spanish minor now, and I'll be done with my Philosophy and Biology ones by the end of this semester. This summer then will be taking French III, Japanese I at community college, probably, some history upper division elective, and in all likeliness the environmental analytical chemistry course that's going to be offered at the very end of summer over a two week period. However, there are so many possible chemistry options that I can take this fall, I hear, that I may not need to do so. That leaves classes for fall at maybe French IV, if PPCC offers it, Japanese II, my history thesis, and my chemistry electives. On top of that, the only thing I can think to do is work.

Spring presents a bigger conundrum because I'll be totally done with school, except for potentially more French electives and Japanese III.

So I've been thinking about my options given that. The first is to spend the time really getting my grad school applications sparkling, really showing that my research, my biology experience, my four majors, and my 4 languages will be enough to get into grad school, doing all of the interview I'll get (which will probably be one or two at most). The second one I've been considering is to apply for the Rhodes Scholarship, but I've looked at the website and I don't really have an idea of how the application process works. I think I have to ahve my degree by Oct 1, 2009, but something about that doesn't seem right, since I get it almost a year ahead of time. The third, and probably the one that makes the least sense, is to go for a Master's in something here that can help me in the future. Of course, of all the options available at UCCS, the only one that I could possibly get is an MBA, and I don't see how that can help me in anything.

Perhaps I should just keep working and save up a bunch of money. I really would like to do something though.

Sigh, I must work on my thesis now.