Change

I am sensing a change building within me. Tonight, I did something hugely positive. I won't talk about it, because it is immensely private. However, I would like to say that this is a big change from two weeks ago, when I very nearly made the biggest mistake of my life.

If there's anything these last two weeks have taught me, it's that my personal solidarity must never be broken. I am, unto myself an island, a citadel impenetrable by the forces that would topple me.

I'm feeling a resurgence of the wave that led me to create this blog. Out of serious personal failure has come serious personal growth. The solidifying of certain personal borders has always been a wonderful thing for me, because it leads to an explosion of creativity and a drive to unparalleled education. I no doubt will begin my study of my fourth language or will begin to get ahead in all of my classes. Something amazing.

I can really use the motivation right now anyways. With the sense that I am actually beginning to progress, I spur onward.

Right now, I am unconquerable, I am defiant, and I am on the edge of the flowering of education. I complete reversal from these last months, floundering in this bizarre land of uncertainty and of trial.

However, tonight I have taken the first big steps towards REAL progress.