So bad

I'm such a terrible updater. I should try to do it everyday but I'm right now only managing a few posts a week. Pretty soon, I'll disappear forever. Well, that's probably true, considering how fall is going to go for me.

I'm pretty pissed off right now, to be honest. In my last pay period, I worked at least 13 hours, and I'm pretty sure that it was more like 14.5 (I remember that being the number I wrote for total hours). However, in my paycheck yesterday, I was only paid 45 dollars. I'm pretty sure that my pay rate has not changed, so I figured that it had something to do with my hours. Of course, my boss reported that I had only worked 5 hours over two weeks. Five. Out of at least 13. I got gyped over 80 bucks. So basically, I have to go in and complain about it, and given my wonderous record with the CU system, I'll probably not get paid what I worked.

This makes me REALLY anxious about my possibilities for these last two weeks, considering that I worked over 57 hours. Which means I should be getting paid about $520 two weeks from yesterday, but if that's messed up, I will literally explode.

I'm going to have to talk to my boss on Monday, and if the situation isn't resolved, I guess I'll suck it up for those two weeks, but if I'm fucked over on these last two weeks, I'll probably quit.

I've gotten pretty angry over the last couple of weeks at him, for a variety of reasons. It just doesn't seem like anything is really organized.

I have three pretty big examples recently. The first is that when I unboxed all of the computers, there was this cord already attached to the monitor (the blue VGA cord) that goes into the back of the computer part thing (modem?). Anyways, I had connected all of the blue ones together, and I find out, about a week after I do it, that he decided he wanted the white ones connected, when it would have save me a lot of time just to do the white ones in the first place.

The second is that he asked me to work the open house for Dwire Hall on August 19th, so I was coming up with ideas for what we could do that day, to show some of our programs and resources, and I'm talking it over with him, and there are apparently two open houses, one which he neglected to mention to me. But instead of having a week to prepare for the open houses, I have a mere three days, as there is one this Thursday (Tuesday is training for LTC people, so that will be a non-open house day). Then there's one mysteriously floating in September land of which the details are obscure to me.

Starting next week, we're suppsoed to give presentations in class to the various languages, with the vast majority of the presentations being our software, which is supposedly our biggest achievement of the summer. Not the fact that we have moved, but rather, our "innovative" software, which cost us...oh, about $1000. Software that we really didn't need, in my opinion, but my boss thought that the "technology" part of language technology center was lacking.

I don't know. I don't think that these presentations, which are supposed to orient students to the LTC should be presentations of our software. The whole thing he said, is supposed to take 20 minutes. Compared to the other tutoring centers on campus, this is excessive. For example, the Science Learning Center director is the one who does all of the schpeals, and they take about 3 minutes. The writing center doesn't even do them. The math center I think is the same as Science, and the oral communications center is this blip in the middle of limbo to me.

It's frustrating, because I think my boss thinks that I'm psychic and can read his mind about his vision for the LTC and that it's my job to make sure that everything is presentable enough (by the way,everything HAS to look perfect).

Tutoring has gone to the dinosaurs for college. Now, it's basically babysitting.

Oh, and my final thing. I told my boss yesterday that I had to leave at 1:30 to go to work at Memorial, a place where I have had a longer commitment (and more hours). Keep in mind that I had gotten there at 9 AM. At 1:15, he comes in and tells me that I need to hook all of the computers up to the internet and connect the power cords before I leave. We have 30 computers. I was livid. I mean, I had been there all day, listening to the software and crap so I can give a decent presentation on it, vacuuming (which other people are paid to do), and installing software. Suffice it to say, this does not take a lot of effort.

So why could he have not told me at say 9 AM? I don't know. But I'm just getting really frustrated with my job, and I've been looking at other opportunities, but nothing looks flexible with my schedule. I just don't know how much all of this stress is worth it.

Ok, I have to wrap up soon because I have to work, again for placement tests.

Well, I did volunteer for this, so I'm not complaining too much.

I just hope I get paid for what I work this week.

Because my credit card is breaking my back. Last week, my savings account had $800. Today, it has $150. I had to spend $250 on my tuition (nothing compared to what my dad had to pay--$5800), and $450 on my last credit card--school books, CLEP test, etc.

Next month's credit card bill: $450 again. I have to pay $350 on my parking pass for the year and $100 for more school books and other essentials.

I think looking at this post, these next four months are going to be the hardest in my life so far. I have so much going against me right now--the stress of finances, the stress of school, the stress of absolute absence of sanity--that I have no idea how I'm going to make it.

I'm determined to find some weekend work to buttress my accounts. I've been looking on all the employment sites, hoping for some weekend hours (if I can get 8 hr on Sat. and Sun., that would be great).

I'm equally determined to make straight A's again. I did it this summer, so now, my hardest challenge is to come: can I make it through these next four months of work and basically human devastation? Or will the stress that I put on myself finally be too much?

It seems that the chaos that I once missed is going to come back in new ways.
I only hope that I can live up to the challenge. If I can make it through these next four months, I can handle anything.

Time to work.

By the way, I just reached my target weight! 149 here I am!