I am literally exhausted. All traces of energy have been sapped out of my body by these last few days and the rest of today will not improve things any.

Yesterday was all work all day. I went into the LTC at 6:30 AM and was there until 1:00, unloading boxes of computers, moving more stuff into storage, doing something with the 100 tons of boxes we had left over from the computers, preparing all of our metal to be painted. It was definitely blah. Monday is going to be seriously blah because I'm going to be turned into the department slave, essentially. Not high on my list of fun things to do.

I'm going to see if I can get the rest of the LTC organized before I'm sent into departmental servitude. I also REFUSE to work for Steen. She can lift her own shit. I won't work for her, ever, ever, ever. If she wants help, she can hire someone else.

Work last night was exhausting too, mostly because I was pushing a lot of people, and things were pretty stressed out for a while. I'd like to have one day where I go from open to close in volunteering, just so I can see how things go throughout the day. It would be an absolute mess on my body, but it would definitely be a good experience. Maybe next Friday...

In the hour I had between volunteering and work at LTC, I got a quick lunch of meh pizza, another doubleshot (I had already downed one that morning) and a sample of blueberry and cream frappucino, which tasted wowalicious.

I went to get my badge, but they have to put in a request, and I'll get it made on Tuesday after work, presumably.

Volunteer services sent me all over the city because they thought I had a positive TB test, and the people at Employee Health thought that they were crazy.

Today has been ok, I suppose. I went to this presentation thing from a Rwandan holocaust survivor, and I originally thought that it was sponsored by Colorado College, when in reality, it was sponsored by their Catholic Club or something like that. While most of her discussion was faith oriented, she had a lot of poignant, more secular observations which I found intriguing, and even though I didn't have a lot of connection with her faith based stuff, her discussions on human nature underlying her general thesis were excellent. I've always thought that people from more diverse and challenging backgrounds are the basis of wisdom, and she certainly has had the experience necessary for wisdom to prevail. And though I do not find myself particualrly religious, her convictions were certianly admirable.

However, despite the main speaker's general excellence, the other speakers and the atmosphere was by and large corrosive. One speaker was essentially a bible thumper on marriage saying that divorce is too rampant (when in fact, I don't care. If a marriage doesn't work, it doesn't work) and that homosexuality is destuctive to families. I'm pretty sure that that's not supposed to be an official teaching, that homosexuality in and of itself (not the actions, but the inner tendencies) are corrosive to families. It was a fundamentalist speech emphasising all of these religious things, with which I can no longer find agreement.

Seeing these things have made me realize that the kind of religious faith that at least Americans have is unbased. Something essentially violative of human nature exists at the base of American religious expression, and I cannot easily tolerate it. I cannot easily tolerate the people who form the basis of religion in the US either, the priests, ministers, "witnesses", because of there extremeness. Their immediate and unchanging judgments against different types of people.

I try to imagine that I have not been easy to be that way as well, but I know that when I was a fanatic religious person myself, I acted the same way, and that now that my religious influences have been defeated, I find myself more open to the possibility of a diversity of ideas and opinions, and much less of a biased person.

That I find this means that religion's direction in this country is a bad thing. Now that churches are governed as well by the almighty dollar demonstrates that the morality of religion is no longer as moral as it once could claim.

After the thing, I went to Old Colorado City and walked around a little, finding nothing of great interest, so I went to La Baguette and got lunch--gazpacho and an almond croissant--which was fantastic.

And now I'm home, determining what to do with the rest of my day.