Disappointing

Yes, the title of this post reflects the quality (what is quality?) of my recent posts.

I've been really weird for this whole week. Tuesday and Wednesday I was having really weird body things going on with random pains and numbness and tingling in my left leg, and I was scared that I might have had early symptoms of MS, but it turns out I was really low on potassium, because I ate three bananas (quite gross, really) and the next day I was fine.

I'm been kind of blah on school for a number of reasons. First, I can't put my finger down on what the fuck I'm doing with school. I keep switching things, thinking that I can do this or that or this or that, and it's freaking frustrating. There are things I know I want to do, like my four majors, plus my minors in physics and spanish, but there so many other things that I could want to do or try or whatever, and it's pissing me off.

I decided that in the face of such uncertainty, it would be wise to take only 8 hours over the summer, Physics II and Calculus III. In the Fall, I'm taking Physics III, Genetics, Plant Physiology, Biochemistry I, Biochemistry Principles, Early Modern Europe, Analytical Chemistry, Critical Thinking, and Spanish Grammar. Hopefully, I don't decide to change things again.

I think a lot of my problem is that I have so much potential, and I don't really want to do anything with it because it won't get me anywhere. I mean, the only way to get to the top nowadays is through money or sex, neither of which I have. My accomplishments mean nothing, frankly.