I finished most of the world in the last two days, and all I have left to do are a few small countries in Latin America, Africa, and the Balkans, as well as the -stans, and the Philippines. Plus I have to put all the seals on the countries that have them. Then I am done. My world looks really nice.
Anyways, my last couple of days were unmomentous. Yesterday I really did nothing because I could not go anywhere, and today, the only place I went was church, and that was a big fiesta, and by fiesta I mean siesta because I had my favorite person. I really hope he goes far away, but he kisses the bishop's ass so much that he'll stay near to us so that he can come and bother us whenever he wants.
I figure, since there's an hour left in the old year, I should steal Susie's blog survey and do it myself.
1. What did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before? Really commit to myself, philosophically, personally, academically, etc.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't remember last year's. This year's is to get straight A's.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No
4. Did anyone close to you die?No.
5. What countries did you visit? Seriously? I left Colorado once in all of 2006.
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? A vacation, broader experiences, more money, etc.
7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? There isn't one in particular that is etched into my memory, the whole year was quite memorable.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Straight A's, my first job for which I had to interview, and a 75 page paper.
9. What was your biggest failure? Not taking Cell Biology instead of some other class
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I got one cold, athlete's foot (ironically), and that's it.
11. What was the best thing you bought? My CLEP Sociology book, I got a 94% on that test!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Karin's been through a lot this year. Props to her mucho for staying the same. Jalaine and Maricor for doing great at Regis this semester, being more committed to working and finding things out
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? People I went to school with who just stopped talking to me
14. Where did most of your money go? Regis and UCCS
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? The usual, Grey's and Desperate and good grades
16. What song will always remind you of 2006? There's no song that will really remind me of this year.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:happier or sadder? 2005 was a really really really shitty year for me, so I am MUCH HAPPIER this year than last
thinner or fatter? THINNER, at least in the last six months
richer or poorer? POORER
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Working, classes
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? I tend not to think about lessening things, but at Regis, I probably should have cut off more social ties with people I knew would not talk to me much after I left
20. How will you be spending Christmas? In 2007? I know it's the last Christmas I intend on having in my life, because the religious people try to force you to be happy and to do things and blah, and the materialistic part is frustrating too.
21. Did you fall in love in 2006? Nope, I'm at 2 and a half years since my last crush (thank God I learned)
22. How many one-night stands? 0
23. What was your favorite TV program? Grey's Anatomy (Desperate Housewives was a close second)
24. Do you dislike anyone now that you didn’t dislike this time last year? Yeah, no comments on who though
25. What was the best book you read? Organic Chemistry...um, no. Actually, I was wuite fond of the book on I we had to read for History, and I also liked Thomas Hobbes.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? I don't think I really discovered anyone, except maybe Nightwish. Wait, Nelly Furtado.
27. What did you want and get? Organization, I got so much more. More than I could possibly describe.
28. What did you want and not get? Vindication
29. What was your favorite film of this year? I did not see a movie in 2006
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I did homework on my birthday as I seem to do every year, and I turned 19
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Vindication
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? Sweaters, Turtlenecks, and the banishment of the short.
33. What kept you sane? Myself, really.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Well, even though she's dead, I absolutely love Audrey Hepburn
35. What political issue stirred you the most? The D-11 recall. I was appaled that Greg Garcia actually ran when he had no kids go to D-11 schools and he told my paretns that Palmer was a bad choice and he questioned their parenting when we decided that I would go there.
36. Who did you miss? Maricor, Jalaine, Becky, the whole group.
37. Who was the best new person you met? Well, I've really only met one new person this year, so Cece. Best building relationship though was with Maricor.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006? The only thing in the universe that I can really depend on is myself.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: I'm Going Where My Heart Will Take Me....
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Friday, December 29, 2006
Nelly Furtado makes me really happy. I need to go to clubs.
So I have a project. A project which excites me extensively. I'm painting the world in the next two weeks. I'm doing my flag thing on the whole world this time. Since I have virtually no other life, thanks to the weather, my blog will simply be a progress report from day to day, unless I see it worthy to update with some other information.
Current Progress:
All 5 Oceans completed.
Outlines for all continents completed.
Outlines Completed for countries in North America, South America, Oceania.
Country by country progress:
COMPLETED NATIONS:
Brazil, Argentina, Uruguay, Somalia, Libya
IN PROGRESS NATIONS: (PAINTING)
Canada, United States, Mexico, Nicaragua, Panama, Jamaica, Dominican Republic, Cuba, Puerto Rico, Venezuela, Colombia, Ecuador, Guyana, Suriname, French Guiana, Paraguay, Chile, Bolivia, South Africa, Botswana, Namibia, Indonesia, New Zealand, Australia, Greenland, Denmark, Great Britain, Ireland, Oman, UAE, Madagascar
SKETCHED NATIONS (NO PAINTING):
Japan, South Korea, North Korea, Peru, Tunisia, Egypt, Yemen, Qatar
So I have a project. A project which excites me extensively. I'm painting the world in the next two weeks. I'm doing my flag thing on the whole world this time. Since I have virtually no other life, thanks to the weather, my blog will simply be a progress report from day to day, unless I see it worthy to update with some other information.
Current Progress:
All 5 Oceans completed.
Outlines for all continents completed.
Outlines Completed for countries in North America, South America, Oceania.
Country by country progress:
COMPLETED NATIONS:
Brazil, Argentina, Uruguay, Somalia, Libya
IN PROGRESS NATIONS: (PAINTING)
Canada, United States, Mexico, Nicaragua, Panama, Jamaica, Dominican Republic, Cuba, Puerto Rico, Venezuela, Colombia, Ecuador, Guyana, Suriname, French Guiana, Paraguay, Chile, Bolivia, South Africa, Botswana, Namibia, Indonesia, New Zealand, Australia, Greenland, Denmark, Great Britain, Ireland, Oman, UAE, Madagascar
SKETCHED NATIONS (NO PAINTING):
Japan, South Korea, North Korea, Peru, Tunisia, Egypt, Yemen, Qatar
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Contact
I never thought I would write a post about this. But for once, I don't want to talk about school, or about my personal vendetta againstthe universe, but about me and other people.
What the hell?
Over this last year, I have just felt things slip away with everyone that I have known, except for maybe one or two.
Most of the people I have known don't talk to me anymore, and when we do talk, it's just empty kind of crap.
I have not talked to anyone from elementary or middle school in several months.
With thankful exception for Karin, I have not talked to anyone from high school extensively in almost a year.
I have not talked to anyone fr Regis in some time.
I wonder if these people miss me at all. I mean, do those people think that I matter at all? I found out today that someone I knew kept all these secret things from me, and it makes me wonder why the hell I even bother. I'm supposed to see her soon, but, I mean, what the hell are we going to talk about. Memories, and that's all I can think of. Why do I bother?
I had this emotional spat earlier this semester and I had this blog hidden away, to which I cannot remember the name or the password or what email I freaking used to start the thing. I was upset because this person lied to me deliberately, and I knew it. To be honest, it's really hard to push that kind of thing past me. Despite the fact that I have never had a relationship in my life, I can read people well. That's one thing I pride myself on, is the power of observation. I may have no social skills, but when people were playing and socializing on the playground and such, I watched. I watch people's movements when they converse with me and with each other, and I can tell when people are lying. There are very few people who can keep a straight face when they are lying, an eye moves, a muscle twitches, their lips purse. The eyes are the key. I can tell when people lie by looking at their eyes and how they move when they talk. I don't know why or how, but I can tell.
I made some kind of post about this incident, and I totally deleted it. On livejournal, I just went and found it on xanga, and I knew it then, and I know it now.
I know, there are a lot of things about me which cut off a lot of people. Distance is one thing. Had I stayed with the people from elementary/middle school and gone to St. Mary's I would probably 1) have killed myself and 2) have stayed in contact. But, I went to Palmer, and I am so thankful for that. Palmer is the BEST school in Colorado. By far. I mean, I got so much education, and I found some really great people.
I've been fortunate to be able to talk to a lot of them still, especially Karin, and occasionally, Colleen, Kristina, and Karen.
But I lost it with a LOT of people, and there are a lot of reasons for that. Distance is one, but another is that I've changed so much. And that's probably why I lost a lot of people at Regis too.
My irreligiousness probably has turned off several people, but I think that some of the people I knew just don't like me. Because I'm intellectual/stuck-up/educationally obsessed/whatever.
We'll see later in the break.
What the hell?
Over this last year, I have just felt things slip away with everyone that I have known, except for maybe one or two.
Most of the people I have known don't talk to me anymore, and when we do talk, it's just empty kind of crap.
I have not talked to anyone from elementary or middle school in several months.
With thankful exception for Karin, I have not talked to anyone from high school extensively in almost a year.
I have not talked to anyone fr Regis in some time.
I wonder if these people miss me at all. I mean, do those people think that I matter at all? I found out today that someone I knew kept all these secret things from me, and it makes me wonder why the hell I even bother. I'm supposed to see her soon, but, I mean, what the hell are we going to talk about. Memories, and that's all I can think of. Why do I bother?
I had this emotional spat earlier this semester and I had this blog hidden away, to which I cannot remember the name or the password or what email I freaking used to start the thing. I was upset because this person lied to me deliberately, and I knew it. To be honest, it's really hard to push that kind of thing past me. Despite the fact that I have never had a relationship in my life, I can read people well. That's one thing I pride myself on, is the power of observation. I may have no social skills, but when people were playing and socializing on the playground and such, I watched. I watch people's movements when they converse with me and with each other, and I can tell when people are lying. There are very few people who can keep a straight face when they are lying, an eye moves, a muscle twitches, their lips purse. The eyes are the key. I can tell when people lie by looking at their eyes and how they move when they talk. I don't know why or how, but I can tell.
I made some kind of post about this incident, and I totally deleted it. On livejournal, I just went and found it on xanga, and I knew it then, and I know it now.
I know, there are a lot of things about me which cut off a lot of people. Distance is one thing. Had I stayed with the people from elementary/middle school and gone to St. Mary's I would probably 1) have killed myself and 2) have stayed in contact. But, I went to Palmer, and I am so thankful for that. Palmer is the BEST school in Colorado. By far. I mean, I got so much education, and I found some really great people.
I've been fortunate to be able to talk to a lot of them still, especially Karin, and occasionally, Colleen, Kristina, and Karen.
But I lost it with a LOT of people, and there are a lot of reasons for that. Distance is one, but another is that I've changed so much. And that's probably why I lost a lot of people at Regis too.
My irreligiousness probably has turned off several people, but I think that some of the people I knew just don't like me. Because I'm intellectual/stuck-up/educationally obsessed/whatever.
We'll see later in the break.
Monday, December 25, 2006
I wanted to make a list of what I think are the 10 best songs of 2006, in no particular order:
Shakira: Hips Don't Lie
Gnarls Barkley: Crazy
The Fray: How to Save a Life
Pussycat Dolls: Buttons
Jennifer Hudson: I Am Telling You I Am Not Going
Nelly Furtado: Promiscuous
KT Tunstall: Black Horse and Cherry Tree
Madonna: Sorry
Will Smith: Switch (This might be an 05 song, but I like it)
Sadly, I must admit that Justin Timberlake's Sexyback is a good song, worthy of top 10 recognition.
Anyways. Moving aside from my lame list,
the last several days have been uneventful. I made some of my killer Greek food yesterday, and I spent the previous two days moving some of this 8 foot drift that the city of Colorado Springs put in front of our house, causing pain to my arms, back, and hands which now have blisters on them.
I only went to church once. So I used up some of my church bank. I should have gone Sunday morning instead of at night, because guess who I had???? My favorite person ever...only not. Again, this is why I no longer like the other half of Christmas, the whole sermon was about stuffing happiness down our throats. Guess what? If I am going to be happy, it is not going to be listening to Fr. Brad's incessant stories which have little point and his jokes which have no humor. Unfortunately, I'll be leaving at the same time he will be departing from St. Pat's.
I don't think I've been to a full Mass in weeks because I've had him for pretty much all of advent. Mass is not supposed to last 1 hour and 45 minutes. The man just does not shut up.
I pulled my Jewish line again the other day. Fun times, seriously. I went to King Soopers to purchase cooking supplies, and as I went in, these Boy Scouts we selling last minute trees, and one of them asked if I would like to buy one, and I said, "oh no thanks, I'm Jewish". That line is simple, no explanations, no anything. The guy just said "oh, I'm sorry" no like a sarcastic one, but an "I didn't know" one. No questions, no anything.
Seriously, these lines are for expediency. Now, if I have one of those crazy Evangelicals come up to me and talk about Jesus, I'll pretend to be deaf, and start waving my hands like sign language, or I'll speak in Spanish, or something to get away expediently. The Jewish line does not work because it encourages them to try to convert you. The lesson from all of this is not to bother me with your problems and don't try to sell anything to me because, frankly, I don't give a damn about your stuff. If I did, I would come to you first.
For about a year now, I've wanted to have an angry confrontation with some religious figure, any one of them, but now, I realize that such a confrontation is a bad thing. Anger, while motivational towards some kind of initial push which levies all kinds of attacks, is only really useful in fight or flight circumstances. Instead, an emotionless response is best. It does not have passionate beliefs, or anything like that to back it up, which can be dissected and broken down by a patient barrage, even if it is lies. It simply depends on reason and logic. My responses would be short, and the discussion would end quickly. There would be no sort of hope for retribution of a victory of words on any other side.
The reason I have wanted to do this is because there still exists the underlying assumption that I have any intention of being a priest whatsoever, when in fact, I would be terrible material for several reasons. 1) I don't want to. 2) I don't believe in the existence of an immortal soul. 3) I don't care about the nature of God, what It is or what It is composed of is insignificant to me. 4) I don't think God has much to do with human existence. 5) I don't believe in free will. the list goes on, but those are the main five. If they continue to press on, I still have several things which can help, i.e. I have actually violated criteria which eliminate a candidate. Namely, intentional self injury (I have not done it in more than 2 years, so don't think I have an issue with it), but I don't feel sorry for it at all. If that even fails, then I have the ultiamte statement that essentially, I'm not really all that Catholic.
Once such an impression is crushed, I will be left alone, and for the last year, that's all I have really wanted. I am somewhat comfortable allowing their presumptions to remain, because then I do not have the confrontation to deal with, but I assure you, it is coming. I cannot hide out for the next year and a half. I will have to tackle the situation eventually, but for now, I am content to bide my time, and wait for the dawning of the combat. I will not be the aggressor, but I will not be defeated. Once I succeed ,then there is no uncomfortable truce, but rather, the plain fact that I am uninterested and that I wish to be left alone.
Al Alba Vincero.
Shakira: Hips Don't Lie
Gnarls Barkley: Crazy
The Fray: How to Save a Life
Pussycat Dolls: Buttons
Jennifer Hudson: I Am Telling You I Am Not Going
Nelly Furtado: Promiscuous
KT Tunstall: Black Horse and Cherry Tree
Madonna: Sorry
Will Smith: Switch (This might be an 05 song, but I like it)
Sadly, I must admit that Justin Timberlake's Sexyback is a good song, worthy of top 10 recognition.
Anyways. Moving aside from my lame list,
the last several days have been uneventful. I made some of my killer Greek food yesterday, and I spent the previous two days moving some of this 8 foot drift that the city of Colorado Springs put in front of our house, causing pain to my arms, back, and hands which now have blisters on them.
I only went to church once. So I used up some of my church bank. I should have gone Sunday morning instead of at night, because guess who I had???? My favorite person ever...only not. Again, this is why I no longer like the other half of Christmas, the whole sermon was about stuffing happiness down our throats. Guess what? If I am going to be happy, it is not going to be listening to Fr. Brad's incessant stories which have little point and his jokes which have no humor. Unfortunately, I'll be leaving at the same time he will be departing from St. Pat's.
I don't think I've been to a full Mass in weeks because I've had him for pretty much all of advent. Mass is not supposed to last 1 hour and 45 minutes. The man just does not shut up.
I pulled my Jewish line again the other day. Fun times, seriously. I went to King Soopers to purchase cooking supplies, and as I went in, these Boy Scouts we selling last minute trees, and one of them asked if I would like to buy one, and I said, "oh no thanks, I'm Jewish". That line is simple, no explanations, no anything. The guy just said "oh, I'm sorry" no like a sarcastic one, but an "I didn't know" one. No questions, no anything.
Seriously, these lines are for expediency. Now, if I have one of those crazy Evangelicals come up to me and talk about Jesus, I'll pretend to be deaf, and start waving my hands like sign language, or I'll speak in Spanish, or something to get away expediently. The Jewish line does not work because it encourages them to try to convert you. The lesson from all of this is not to bother me with your problems and don't try to sell anything to me because, frankly, I don't give a damn about your stuff. If I did, I would come to you first.
For about a year now, I've wanted to have an angry confrontation with some religious figure, any one of them, but now, I realize that such a confrontation is a bad thing. Anger, while motivational towards some kind of initial push which levies all kinds of attacks, is only really useful in fight or flight circumstances. Instead, an emotionless response is best. It does not have passionate beliefs, or anything like that to back it up, which can be dissected and broken down by a patient barrage, even if it is lies. It simply depends on reason and logic. My responses would be short, and the discussion would end quickly. There would be no sort of hope for retribution of a victory of words on any other side.
The reason I have wanted to do this is because there still exists the underlying assumption that I have any intention of being a priest whatsoever, when in fact, I would be terrible material for several reasons. 1) I don't want to. 2) I don't believe in the existence of an immortal soul. 3) I don't care about the nature of God, what It is or what It is composed of is insignificant to me. 4) I don't think God has much to do with human existence. 5) I don't believe in free will. the list goes on, but those are the main five. If they continue to press on, I still have several things which can help, i.e. I have actually violated criteria which eliminate a candidate. Namely, intentional self injury (I have not done it in more than 2 years, so don't think I have an issue with it), but I don't feel sorry for it at all. If that even fails, then I have the ultiamte statement that essentially, I'm not really all that Catholic.
Once such an impression is crushed, I will be left alone, and for the last year, that's all I have really wanted. I am somewhat comfortable allowing their presumptions to remain, because then I do not have the confrontation to deal with, but I assure you, it is coming. I cannot hide out for the next year and a half. I will have to tackle the situation eventually, but for now, I am content to bide my time, and wait for the dawning of the combat. I will not be the aggressor, but I will not be defeated. Once I succeed ,then there is no uncomfortable truce, but rather, the plain fact that I am uninterested and that I wish to be left alone.
Al Alba Vincero.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
CHEM 331--Organic Chemistry I: A
CHEM 333--Organic Chemistry Lab I: A
HIST 344--Tudor-Stuart England: A
PES 215--General Physics Lab II: A
PHIL 357--Kant and the Enlightenment: A
PHIL 312--Greek and Roman Myth: A
PHIL 417--Health Care Ethics: A
P SC 101--Intro to Global Politics: A
Somehow, I did it. I have a 4.0 again. My record of straight A's is up to 23 semesters now. YAY! I also got on the President's List for this semester, which is really nice, and I guaranteed myself a couple of scholarships. I should get a $2000 one next year, and my Kane scholarship should hold for this semester which is $1500. Not to mention that I have a good shot at getting a lot of other scholarships. Hopefully, I can get enough scholarships to where I pay nothing for tuition next year. That would be totally sweet.
I finished a 1000 piece puzzle, by myself, in less than 24 hours.
I did not get a chance to go through all of the stuff I wanted to go through, but I will do that shortly. After I discuss pertinent information of my life.
I had a weird dream last night where I bought a box for 10 dollars and after I bought it a hoard of people (Christians, they came out of a church) chased after me, and then this nice Jewish family (I know they were Jewish because they had menorahs (the ones with 7 candles, not the ones with 9 that are used or Chanukah) took me into their house and the people chasing me could not come in. Then the Jews got their menorahs and chased away all of the people outside.
Then I gave them the box that I bought for 10 dollars, and they shriveled up and died because the box was not kosher.
Very strange dream.
So this weekend, Catholics are supposed to go to Church at some point between 5 PM on Saturday night, and like 12 PM on Sunday, and then we have to go again within the next 24 hours, because the calendar is inflexible. Now seriously, how many people do you think are going to go to Church twice in two days? Seriously? Like 100 people who are either afraid of going to hell or are all super holy, or have to by proxy.
I am not. I'm going on Sunday at like 10 PM and counting it for both Sunday and Monday, because the mass will probably last 2 hours, since we will probably have Fr. Brad. I need to consider bringing something to do while he has his hour long sermon. Believe it or not, he has had a sermon last 45 minutes before, which is simply vulgar. I am hoping that he really wants to torture people on Christmas morning and decides not to do the 10 PM mass.
I also have about 100 extra Masses on my soul (we'll say that I still believe in an immortal soul. I don't, but let's say for the sake of argument that I do.) since I went like every day when I was at Regis first semester. So, I'll just use two of those to cover what ever day I am technically missing. Although, I am down 4 more, because I missed both All Saint's Day and the Immaculate Conception because of work/school.
I'm kind of glad that I did not go second semester, because I got to have extra time with other people whom I really liked.
Anyways, I'm going to go back to my lair.
CHEM 333--Organic Chemistry Lab I: A
HIST 344--Tudor-Stuart England: A
PES 215--General Physics Lab II: A
PHIL 357--Kant and the Enlightenment: A
PHIL 312--Greek and Roman Myth: A
PHIL 417--Health Care Ethics: A
P SC 101--Intro to Global Politics: A
Somehow, I did it. I have a 4.0 again. My record of straight A's is up to 23 semesters now. YAY! I also got on the President's List for this semester, which is really nice, and I guaranteed myself a couple of scholarships. I should get a $2000 one next year, and my Kane scholarship should hold for this semester which is $1500. Not to mention that I have a good shot at getting a lot of other scholarships. Hopefully, I can get enough scholarships to where I pay nothing for tuition next year. That would be totally sweet.
I finished a 1000 piece puzzle, by myself, in less than 24 hours.
I did not get a chance to go through all of the stuff I wanted to go through, but I will do that shortly. After I discuss pertinent information of my life.
I had a weird dream last night where I bought a box for 10 dollars and after I bought it a hoard of people (Christians, they came out of a church) chased after me, and then this nice Jewish family (I know they were Jewish because they had menorahs (the ones with 7 candles, not the ones with 9 that are used or Chanukah) took me into their house and the people chasing me could not come in. Then the Jews got their menorahs and chased away all of the people outside.
Then I gave them the box that I bought for 10 dollars, and they shriveled up and died because the box was not kosher.
Very strange dream.
So this weekend, Catholics are supposed to go to Church at some point between 5 PM on Saturday night, and like 12 PM on Sunday, and then we have to go again within the next 24 hours, because the calendar is inflexible. Now seriously, how many people do you think are going to go to Church twice in two days? Seriously? Like 100 people who are either afraid of going to hell or are all super holy, or have to by proxy.
I am not. I'm going on Sunday at like 10 PM and counting it for both Sunday and Monday, because the mass will probably last 2 hours, since we will probably have Fr. Brad. I need to consider bringing something to do while he has his hour long sermon. Believe it or not, he has had a sermon last 45 minutes before, which is simply vulgar. I am hoping that he really wants to torture people on Christmas morning and decides not to do the 10 PM mass.
I also have about 100 extra Masses on my soul (we'll say that I still believe in an immortal soul. I don't, but let's say for the sake of argument that I do.) since I went like every day when I was at Regis first semester. So, I'll just use two of those to cover what ever day I am technically missing. Although, I am down 4 more, because I missed both All Saint's Day and the Immaculate Conception because of work/school.
I'm kind of glad that I did not go second semester, because I got to have extra time with other people whom I really liked.
Anyways, I'm going to go back to my lair.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Wow, today has been a pretty unhappy day. Not as in depressing, but just unhappy. I did not take the opportunity to leave the house yesterday and now I feel all cooped up inside.
Suffice it to say, I hate (as in hate) snow. I was much happier when we had nothing.
So today's list of accomplishments is quite small. I found a box in which I could put all of my high school stuff, like the medals I won in Science Olympiad, my diploma, IB sash, etc.
I just don't feel like I'm getting rid of that much stuff. Well, a lot of it, I cannot get rid of because there are no stupid boxes to put anything in, and there's a lot of stuff in my room which is not mine. Perhaps I will feel better about all of this after Christmas, when there are boxes and I can toss at will anything that I want into them. My big hope is that eventually, I can get rid of one of the pieces of furniture in my room and put it on the other side (I live in the basement, and there's a whole other half to the room).
I am going to go back down there and go through my "maybe I'll get rid of this" pile, and finally decide on some of it.
There is one collection of things that I am kind of antsy about getting rid of, which is quite strange. When I was in my all holy stage, I bought a LOT of stuff that I really honestly do not want to keep, like excessive prayer cards, magazines, etc., but I don't know about throwing it all away. I know some of it I can give to the goodwill, but I don't know about some other things. Arg. I'll just make a decision.
I had come up with some other goals for break, which I cannot remember at this moment. I am teaching my little sister to play rummy, Egyptian corkscrew, checkers, and chess. I was thinking about teaching her how to play something like Life or Monopoly, but those take so long....
I am working on a puzzle. I thinkI have about 200 of the 1000 pieces put together so far. Of course, it's all the easy crap that I have done.
I have eaten nothing of nutritional value today, which is REALLY bad. This is my list of things I have eaten: 2 bowls of corn chex, 4 mini-pizzas (from Schwann's), a stovetop grilled cheese sandwhich, a massive spoonful of peanut butter, a small brownie, a nutri-grain bar, and something else........
I will have to sneak in some carrots, tea, and other assorted health foods.
Ok, I'm going to go back to work on puzzles, organization, and reducing clutter.
Suffice it to say, I hate (as in hate) snow. I was much happier when we had nothing.
So today's list of accomplishments is quite small. I found a box in which I could put all of my high school stuff, like the medals I won in Science Olympiad, my diploma, IB sash, etc.
I just don't feel like I'm getting rid of that much stuff. Well, a lot of it, I cannot get rid of because there are no stupid boxes to put anything in, and there's a lot of stuff in my room which is not mine. Perhaps I will feel better about all of this after Christmas, when there are boxes and I can toss at will anything that I want into them. My big hope is that eventually, I can get rid of one of the pieces of furniture in my room and put it on the other side (I live in the basement, and there's a whole other half to the room).
I am going to go back down there and go through my "maybe I'll get rid of this" pile, and finally decide on some of it.
There is one collection of things that I am kind of antsy about getting rid of, which is quite strange. When I was in my all holy stage, I bought a LOT of stuff that I really honestly do not want to keep, like excessive prayer cards, magazines, etc., but I don't know about throwing it all away. I know some of it I can give to the goodwill, but I don't know about some other things. Arg. I'll just make a decision.
I had come up with some other goals for break, which I cannot remember at this moment. I am teaching my little sister to play rummy, Egyptian corkscrew, checkers, and chess. I was thinking about teaching her how to play something like Life or Monopoly, but those take so long....
I am working on a puzzle. I thinkI have about 200 of the 1000 pieces put together so far. Of course, it's all the easy crap that I have done.
I have eaten nothing of nutritional value today, which is REALLY bad. This is my list of things I have eaten: 2 bowls of corn chex, 4 mini-pizzas (from Schwann's), a stovetop grilled cheese sandwhich, a massive spoonful of peanut butter, a small brownie, a nutri-grain bar, and something else........
I will have to sneak in some carrots, tea, and other assorted health foods.
Ok, I'm going to go back to work on puzzles, organization, and reducing clutter.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Not Looking a Gift Horse in the Mouth
Somehow, I don't know how, I've managed to get all A's so far (the only classes not posted for me are Health Care Ethics and Physics Lab), including in two classes I was sure I would not get an A in. So, I'm happily surprised, and making no guesses about anything.
Tomorrow, I have a busy day, as I have to go to the bank, deposit my college account check, then go to UCCS and pay for tuition and apply for the job in the Chemistry stockroom. I had some other things I was planning to do, however, I cannot remember them at this time.....
I just saw something on CNN where over 95% of Americans lose their virginity before marriage. This is of no surprise to me. What would be an interesting study is the number of clergy who have it before ordination. I mention this because I went to Chemistry class with someone whose brother went into a seminary for a while, and he said a lot of he guys were doing really inappropriate things with each other. This also does not surprise me because people are by nature (with exceptions for asexuals like myself) sexual beings and this is in their biology. Most people do not have the ability to overcome it, and that's not my problem.
I wonder where all the snow is, because I have not seen any in the last 24 hours...when we were supposed to get like 8 inches. Supposedly, we're supposed to get 8-12 tonight, but I highly doubt it.
Tomorrow, I have a busy day, as I have to go to the bank, deposit my college account check, then go to UCCS and pay for tuition and apply for the job in the Chemistry stockroom. I had some other things I was planning to do, however, I cannot remember them at this time.....
I just saw something on CNN where over 95% of Americans lose their virginity before marriage. This is of no surprise to me. What would be an interesting study is the number of clergy who have it before ordination. I mention this because I went to Chemistry class with someone whose brother went into a seminary for a while, and he said a lot of he guys were doing really inappropriate things with each other. This also does not surprise me because people are by nature (with exceptions for asexuals like myself) sexual beings and this is in their biology. Most people do not have the ability to overcome it, and that's not my problem.
I wonder where all the snow is, because I have not seen any in the last 24 hours...when we were supposed to get like 8 inches. Supposedly, we're supposed to get 8-12 tonight, but I highly doubt it.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Well, I am utterly stunned. I checked on WebCT and I got a 94% on my chemistry final, when I was sure that I was only going to get like a 80%. That makes me REALLY happy, because that means that I only got below an A on one thing this semester (one A-!). At least I have some things that I might be confident in. I may suck at writing, but I do NOT suck at Chemistry.
So that's good.
Again, these last two days have not been filled with productivity. I did clean out most of the things I will be getting rid of, and I have a stack of things that I might get rid of, but I need to go through it again before I make any final decisions.
Now I only have to wait for one week to pass before I start to actually get rid of these things, because I have no boxes to put my things in.
I've been wondering a lot recently what the hell I am going to do when I graduate from college in a year...and a half (dear God, that's a long time). There are too many options, none of which I want to settle on right now. I may consider some kind of year off to go help people in far off lands thing, because it's like free travel.
There are of course, all kinds of other options.
Too many options.
Anyways. I am not getting as many things done as I had wanted to get done this break. If I had decided to take that philosophy class over break, I would be preparing for class in a week. I want my freaking textbook list, because I need to start looking for my textbooks. Otherwise, I might scream.
So that's good.
Again, these last two days have not been filled with productivity. I did clean out most of the things I will be getting rid of, and I have a stack of things that I might get rid of, but I need to go through it again before I make any final decisions.
Now I only have to wait for one week to pass before I start to actually get rid of these things, because I have no boxes to put my things in.
I've been wondering a lot recently what the hell I am going to do when I graduate from college in a year...and a half (dear God, that's a long time). There are too many options, none of which I want to settle on right now. I may consider some kind of year off to go help people in far off lands thing, because it's like free travel.
There are of course, all kinds of other options.
Too many options.
Anyways. I am not getting as many things done as I had wanted to get done this break. If I had decided to take that philosophy class over break, I would be preparing for class in a week. I want my freaking textbook list, because I need to start looking for my textbooks. Otherwise, I might scream.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Yesterday (and today so far) have not been very invigorating. Which is good, because I need some relaxation.
Yesterday, I went to work, came home, lounged and then went to work at the hospital, where they kept me sufficiently busy until 7:30, which is half an hour overtime, technically.
Of course, since I don't get paid....
I got my work schedule for next semester yesterday. Guess when I work? Monday from like 10.00-12:10. That's it. It looks like I just might apply for either work as a physics grader (for PES 100 and ID 105) or a Chemistry Lab assistant. That, or I'm going to suggest that we open on Saturdays or Sundays for like 5 hours, because there are a lot of military people who cannot come in, and that I would be willing to work for a few hours.
So, unless I can come up with some other way of getting money to come in, then I'll only get $80 every month, which is enough for gas, basically.
Of course, I am not going to put up with that.
Either give me more hours, or I'll have to find work elsewhere, it's that simple.
Today, I've begun the task of cleaning out the unnecessary things in my room, namely, old school things, papers for recycling, books and clothes that I don't want, etc. I plan on getting done with all of this by Tuesday, mainly because I am just a lazy ass.
I'm getting a restless feeling. I would consider going somewhere, but I don't make enough money to do that anymore.
Yesterday, I went to work, came home, lounged and then went to work at the hospital, where they kept me sufficiently busy until 7:30, which is half an hour overtime, technically.
Of course, since I don't get paid....
I got my work schedule for next semester yesterday. Guess when I work? Monday from like 10.00-12:10. That's it. It looks like I just might apply for either work as a physics grader (for PES 100 and ID 105) or a Chemistry Lab assistant. That, or I'm going to suggest that we open on Saturdays or Sundays for like 5 hours, because there are a lot of military people who cannot come in, and that I would be willing to work for a few hours.
So, unless I can come up with some other way of getting money to come in, then I'll only get $80 every month, which is enough for gas, basically.
Of course, I am not going to put up with that.
Either give me more hours, or I'll have to find work elsewhere, it's that simple.
Today, I've begun the task of cleaning out the unnecessary things in my room, namely, old school things, papers for recycling, books and clothes that I don't want, etc. I plan on getting done with all of this by Tuesday, mainly because I am just a lazy ass.
I'm getting a restless feeling. I would consider going somewhere, but I don't make enough money to do that anymore.
Friday, December 15, 2006
Tonight at sundown begins Hanukkah. I thought that everyone would like to know that information, since everyone's all "Happy Holidays" (which, by the way, gags the living daylights out of me). I cannot stand this season. It used to be from the sheer materialism of it, but now it's not that so much as it is people going around and wanting to cram their seasonal happiness down your throat with their perky lights, their perky smiles, and their perky perkiness.
Then, you have people who want you to give away money and things you really cannot afford to give away. Sorry. I'm a college student. I have to satiate the demands of materialistic societies, and pay for things like textbooks, which promise to be VERY expensive. Very expensive.
Speaking of textbooks, I think it would be a good thing if UCCS published its textbook list for next semester, so I can order the books I need on half.com.
Anyways. Yesterday was not too bad of a day. I was slightly disappointed that I had to come in for one freaking hour, but that's life. I'm here now, and it does not upset me so much, save the fact that I had to wake up at 6/6:45.
I did, however, get to cook (YAY!), which I have not done since around Thanksgiving. Kolokythopita (Zucchini Pie), which is one of my Mom's favorites, and a new meatballs baked with yogurt recipe. Unfortunately, I forgot to consider that I am lactose intolerant before I finished cooking it. Therefore, my tummy does not feel very good. I feel the need to make some kind of desert. Maybe my Koulourakis, which always seem to go over very well. I could make them for work tonight, or something.
This break, I anticipate the opportunity to cook some new things. I do want to try a tyropita (cheese pie), some additional meat recipes, and some additional vegetable recipes. Maybe a desert here and there?
I ordered my CLEP book for ancient history the other day. It should be getting in at Borders sometime soon, and then I can study for what should be my final CLEP exam of college. I seriously will have saved one hell of a lot of money taking those things. I mean, it's like $200 per credit hour, so that would be a $600 class, plus a textbook, plus the time it would take to actually go to class, which all in all would be valued around $1000. I spent $90 to take the test, and $30 for a book. $120. And I have four that count here, so that's almost $4000 I'm saving here. I like thinking ahead and anticipating these things.
I have to start studying for the MCATs here soon, followed by the GRE this summer.
That's really icky.
I need some goals to accomplish in the next four weeks. I did not find a temporary job, unfortunately, so I will not have much money coming in, although I should be getting about $250 in the next two weeks (today and two weeks from today) for work.
So instead, I guess I will have to start looking at some scholarship opportunities. There are a few biology scholarships that I could consider, one is worth $3000 and the other is $2000. Anything to help with next year really would be a good thing.
That's a goal. I think a stream of consciousness goal setting thing would be good right now:
1) Look for scholarships
2) Apply for scholarships
3) Clean out the unnecessary things in my room
4) Give unnecessary things in my room to the Goodwill or Arc
5) Collect paperwork to file taxes
6) Contact Regis for my paperwork for this year
7) Purchase textbooks for next semester
8) Save additional money for Spring Break trip to Las Vegas (oooh. Star Trek Convention!)
9) Cook a lot
10) Watch Star Trek
11) Make one of those lists of things where I learned x in 2006 and will plan to do y in 2007.
12) Realize that such a list has no meaning
13) Rendezvous with Karin
14) Other rendezvous?
15) The End.
Then, you have people who want you to give away money and things you really cannot afford to give away. Sorry. I'm a college student. I have to satiate the demands of materialistic societies, and pay for things like textbooks, which promise to be VERY expensive. Very expensive.
Speaking of textbooks, I think it would be a good thing if UCCS published its textbook list for next semester, so I can order the books I need on half.com.
Anyways. Yesterday was not too bad of a day. I was slightly disappointed that I had to come in for one freaking hour, but that's life. I'm here now, and it does not upset me so much, save the fact that I had to wake up at 6/6:45.
I did, however, get to cook (YAY!), which I have not done since around Thanksgiving. Kolokythopita (Zucchini Pie), which is one of my Mom's favorites, and a new meatballs baked with yogurt recipe. Unfortunately, I forgot to consider that I am lactose intolerant before I finished cooking it. Therefore, my tummy does not feel very good. I feel the need to make some kind of desert. Maybe my Koulourakis, which always seem to go over very well. I could make them for work tonight, or something.
This break, I anticipate the opportunity to cook some new things. I do want to try a tyropita (cheese pie), some additional meat recipes, and some additional vegetable recipes. Maybe a desert here and there?
I ordered my CLEP book for ancient history the other day. It should be getting in at Borders sometime soon, and then I can study for what should be my final CLEP exam of college. I seriously will have saved one hell of a lot of money taking those things. I mean, it's like $200 per credit hour, so that would be a $600 class, plus a textbook, plus the time it would take to actually go to class, which all in all would be valued around $1000. I spent $90 to take the test, and $30 for a book. $120. And I have four that count here, so that's almost $4000 I'm saving here. I like thinking ahead and anticipating these things.
I have to start studying for the MCATs here soon, followed by the GRE this summer.
That's really icky.
I need some goals to accomplish in the next four weeks. I did not find a temporary job, unfortunately, so I will not have much money coming in, although I should be getting about $250 in the next two weeks (today and two weeks from today) for work.
So instead, I guess I will have to start looking at some scholarship opportunities. There are a few biology scholarships that I could consider, one is worth $3000 and the other is $2000. Anything to help with next year really would be a good thing.
That's a goal. I think a stream of consciousness goal setting thing would be good right now:
1) Look for scholarships
2) Apply for scholarships
3) Clean out the unnecessary things in my room
4) Give unnecessary things in my room to the Goodwill or Arc
5) Collect paperwork to file taxes
6) Contact Regis for my paperwork for this year
7) Purchase textbooks for next semester
8) Save additional money for Spring Break trip to Las Vegas (oooh. Star Trek Convention!)
9) Cook a lot
10) Watch Star Trek
11) Make one of those lists of things where I learned x in 2006 and will plan to do y in 2007.
12) Realize that such a list has no meaning
13) Rendezvous with Karin
14) Other rendezvous?
15) The End.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
There are so many things that I want to learn, it's quite disgusting. What I would give for a few more years, so that I could do it all. If I had my way, this is what I would try to squeeze in the next year (after Spring):
Research Practicum in Biochemistry (or Genetics)
Immunology
Developmental Anatomy
Biochemistry Laboratory
Physical Geology
Physical Geology Lab
Field Study in Geology
History of Ireland
Calculus III
General Astronomy I
General Astronomy Lab I
General Astronomy II
General Astronomy Lab II
United States Space Policy
Well, I am pretty sure that I can sneak the Astronomies in next year, but I just don't know about anything else.
Why does knowledge have to be so enticing?
Damn money.
Research Practicum in Biochemistry (or Genetics)
Immunology
Developmental Anatomy
Biochemistry Laboratory
Physical Geology
Physical Geology Lab
Field Study in Geology
History of Ireland
Calculus III
General Astronomy I
General Astronomy Lab I
General Astronomy II
General Astronomy Lab II
United States Space Policy
Well, I am pretty sure that I can sneak the Astronomies in next year, but I just don't know about anything else.
Why does knowledge have to be so enticing?
Damn money.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
As a prelude to opening a new blog, I always like to discuss things about myself because I love to compare when I move from blog to blog to see how much things change in a year.
I am....
Excelsior. In Latin, this word means "Ever Upwards". It is the motto of the state of New York. NCC-2000, prototype for the Excelsior class starship, whatever. I don't care, it just matters that I am "ever upward". I cannot allow other people to hold me back from those things which I feel are my right to have.
Male, 19 years of age, 161 (WHAT?) pounds, six feet, two inches tall.
A senior in college at University of Colorado, Colorado Springs. Majors: Philosophy, History, Biology, and Chemistry. After this year, I will supposedly have graduate status, although I won't have enough to graduate in any of my degrees until 2008.
Apathetic on religious issues. I don't believe in the existence of an immortal soul (at least for me, I don't care about other people) because the thought about existing forever scares the shit out of me. So, I conciously choose not to believe nor participate in anything that has to do with that. Example: I'm technically Catholic, but I never go to communion. Whether it's real or not doesn't matter because I don't take part in it. Hey! Talk about relativism. Generally though, I tend to have a philosophical approach more appreciative of Judaism.
An explorer by nature. Finding new places, new means of doing something, innovation, discovery, all excite me.
Asexual. I am not attracted to males or females because I am so driven in my goals that I cannot afford the time to find myself attracted to anyone.
A scientist. I thrive on knowledge. I actually like most of the sciences pretty equally. Generaly, I like Biology and Chemistry more than Physics, but Astronomy, Environmental Sciences, Geology, and Oceanology are all fascinating things to me.
A philosopher. I love engaging my mind in thoughts about the world. Specifically though, I enjoy ethics, philosophy of history, atheist existentialism, bioethics, and Schopenhauer.
Not the same person I was a year ago. I was incredibly angry, attacked, transitioning, and even lost. I was confused by religious roots, shattered foundations, and lost visions, and now I have all of those things back.
A cook, especially Greek food, but also venturing into other cuisine of the Mediterranean, including Morocco, Italy, Spain, Israel, Turkey, and Egypt.
Appreciative of fine music.
A rather uninteresting person, despite my obessions with science, order, history, philosophy, wisdom, and Star Trek.
If I think of anything more interesting, I'll be sure to mention it.
Warp Speed. Excesior.
I am....
Excelsior. In Latin, this word means "Ever Upwards". It is the motto of the state of New York. NCC-2000, prototype for the Excelsior class starship, whatever. I don't care, it just matters that I am "ever upward". I cannot allow other people to hold me back from those things which I feel are my right to have.
Male, 19 years of age, 161 (WHAT?) pounds, six feet, two inches tall.
A senior in college at University of Colorado, Colorado Springs. Majors: Philosophy, History, Biology, and Chemistry. After this year, I will supposedly have graduate status, although I won't have enough to graduate in any of my degrees until 2008.
Apathetic on religious issues. I don't believe in the existence of an immortal soul (at least for me, I don't care about other people) because the thought about existing forever scares the shit out of me. So, I conciously choose not to believe nor participate in anything that has to do with that. Example: I'm technically Catholic, but I never go to communion. Whether it's real or not doesn't matter because I don't take part in it. Hey! Talk about relativism. Generally though, I tend to have a philosophical approach more appreciative of Judaism.
An explorer by nature. Finding new places, new means of doing something, innovation, discovery, all excite me.
Asexual. I am not attracted to males or females because I am so driven in my goals that I cannot afford the time to find myself attracted to anyone.
A scientist. I thrive on knowledge. I actually like most of the sciences pretty equally. Generaly, I like Biology and Chemistry more than Physics, but Astronomy, Environmental Sciences, Geology, and Oceanology are all fascinating things to me.
A philosopher. I love engaging my mind in thoughts about the world. Specifically though, I enjoy ethics, philosophy of history, atheist existentialism, bioethics, and Schopenhauer.
Not the same person I was a year ago. I was incredibly angry, attacked, transitioning, and even lost. I was confused by religious roots, shattered foundations, and lost visions, and now I have all of those things back.
A cook, especially Greek food, but also venturing into other cuisine of the Mediterranean, including Morocco, Italy, Spain, Israel, Turkey, and Egypt.
Appreciative of fine music.
A rather uninteresting person, despite my obessions with science, order, history, philosophy, wisdom, and Star Trek.
If I think of anything more interesting, I'll be sure to mention it.
Warp Speed. Excesior.
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
Beginning of the Ever Upward Chronicles
I'm going to wait until the end of the semester to start seriously posting in here, but I thought that it would be a good idea to get things started on this blog while I have some free time. See you around in 10 days or so!
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