My Spring Break is almost dead, and I must force myself to become motivated, if only for the remaining forty-five days left in this semester. There is still so much to do in such little time. I am stunned by the amount of work left for me to do in these short weeks, as is noted in my previous entry, since I have guaranteed that I will pass so few classes.

I caved and bought four American Idol songs and I've been addicted to them almost non-stop since I purchased them. Three Mindy-Doo songs and one Jordin Sparks song--good stuff.

I am in a little bit of chaos right now, because I'm uncertain of what the hell I'm freaking doing. Whenever I go to Regis, this seems to happen to me. I go into this chaos mode where I go and question everything because I see the lives of those people and try to relate. It is purely enfuriating. I of course respond in the end with hardened resolve.

The only thing I never seem to question when I come back has been my dedication towards never putting myself in a relationship. I know that it's something I can never do because I have so much that I want to achieve. I cannot allow myself to get closed out of my goals because I think that I need to dedicate myself to someone. I have the capacity, but no desire, essentially.

Perhaps it's simply because I am at this point in the semester. Prolonged periods off are bad for my mind.

I think if I do homework, I can bury these worries and get back to my old productivity.

I suppose I should update today since I actually did something besides stay at home and do homework at least one day over spring break.

Before I get to that, I've been looking for a job that I could hold this summer to no avail so far. It's going to be difficult to get one, I imagine because I am leaving for a variety of states on May 25 and I'm not going to be back for about a week. By the time I get back, everyone is home from college and out of high school, so there are essentially no jobs. I was looking for some kind of work study on campus, but I have not been able to find anything thus far. I was hoping that my current supervisor in the Lang Tech Center would be willing to let me work this summer to help move everything over to Dwire Hall since that will be open, but I have no idea how much that would be, and it probably would not be enough to make a big enough difference.

I really could use a monetary boost, as I am seriously getting poorer.

I was convinced that today is Saturday. It's not, fortunately. I still have so much to do in the next three days it's not even funny.

I hate Spring BReak, because now I'm not motivated to do anything else for the rest of the semester, and my grades are too low for me to start going into coast mode. I can get a good idea of possible coasting action this next week as I'll have a Chem exam done (I'll be pretty close to 600 points out of 800 in the class), a Cell Bio exam done, and an ancient egypt essay done.

I'm still only guaranteed to pass two of my classes, the OChem lecture (I have like a 54% guaranteed) and the OChem lab (where I have a 58% guaranteed). So basically, if I fell over and died, I would get a 0.17 GPA. I am incredibly close in Physics and Civil War, and after this week, I should be guaranteed to pass Cell Bio, Anthropology, and next week I'll be there for ecology and physiology.

So anyways, yesterday. Driving to Denver was absolute horror as it was snowing the entire way and there was water there and general disgustingness. Of course, everyone drove at 100 mph while Ray goes at 65 to make sure that he doesn't die.

I got to Denver, and got a wonderful parking spot. Saw the woman I worked for and a few of the professors for a couple of minutes. Then at 2 I went and saw Becky for the first ime in a million years, then I went to coffee with Pearl and we caught up on life and discussed the nature of existence, more or less. I won't go into too much detail here because we discussed a lot of stuff that she probably would not want discussed on an open blog and I probably would not want it either.

Then we went to Maggiano's (which I cannot pronounce for the life of me) for dinner with Maricor, which was exquisite, except for this thing called Sambuca. If you hear the word sambuca, run like hell. However, if you hear about tiramisu, you probably should indulge on that matter. This was followed by shopping at Target, library reasearch and friendly discussions until I left Denver at 1215.

I really want to download Melinda Doolittle's full length studio songs from American Idol and a couple of Jordin Sparks' songs.

I would discuss more, but I am not going to do so right now.

It's Only Wednesday?

I'm surprised that it's only Wednesday, as I have been thoroughly convinced all day today that it is Saturday.

Suffice it to say, I am not complaining. I do have several complaints though. These include:
1) UCCS STILL has not posted anything about my Biochemistry class.
2) My writing is really sucky right now, as is evidenced by my first draft of my Egyptian History Paper
3) Ecology
4) My Physiology Test Score (Yes, I am still fuming about that)
5) Not knowing what the hell I am doing

I have several things looking up:
1) I am kicking ass on Mahjong right now
2) I'm listening to Celtic Woman, for which I have tickets!
3) I've been on a scheduling spree, and this Fall, Ray has no school on Friday
4) I may be the only person ever at my school to get 4 majors and 4 minors and 4 years (wow, talk about the repitition of 4's in that sentence in addition to this being the #4 good thing right now)
5) I get to see old college people tomorrow.

Well, I suppose I should discuss my last several days instead of leaving it at this.
I have firmly decided my 4 minors. I am definitely doing Spanish, Political Science, Geography, and Physics.
I'm considering asking Professor Myers if I can audit her 12th Century Renaissance class this Fall. Considering that I consider myself a Renaissance man, I think that History class would be absolutely awesome. She's probably one of the most impressive professors I've ever had. There is a woman who can give an insightful, informative, and consistent lecture without ever having to look at notes. She's probably one of the most intelligent professors I've had too. If anyone who reads this goes to UCCS, I would TOTALLY recommend her for any history class, even if you're not a history major or minor.

Anyways, I have not discussed my days at all. Yesterday, I purchased three CD's: Hayley Westenra's Celtic Treasure, Orla Fallon's Orla, and 25 Classical Favorites. I also purchased two boxes of red tea and a box of my favorite dog food cereal (Heart Health Kashi). Today I managed to do a first draft of my history essay, which sucks, but still, at least it's done.

I've been realizing how much my finals week is going to SUCK. Tuesday, I have both of my history finals, which are in class essay things and a Cell Bio test, which will rape me. Wednesday I have Physics and Chemistry, Thursday Ecology, and Monday I have physiology+my third Egyptian history essay.

Tomorrow I'm going to Regis to visit people. I think I mentioned that already. I'm flipping between this and Mahjong so much I can't remember.

I'm actually going to study for Chemistry tonight, by writing out little notecards for all the reactions and the nomenclature we learned. Tomorrow morning before I leave, I'll make ones for the mechanisms. Or I'll just do that tonight.

Anyways, that's my life right now. Only 47 days until the end of the semester! Hooah!

Progress

I've gotten somewhat far on the work that I intended to do for this break. I finished over half of my Civil War book and 3 of 5 labs in Physiology. I did all of my ecology and anthropology reading through the 10th of April, and I accomplished something else which I cannot remember right now. However, I'm still lagging far behind in some things. I have not worked at all at Chemistry, I haven't done any of the reading I had intended to do for Egyptian History.

Today's agenda:
Finish Civil War Reading
Finish 2 Labs
Do case study IV
Do Pre Lab VIII for OCHEM
Do Grimal reading for Ancient Egypt
Do Anthropology assignment

That will probably take my whole day, to be honest.
Not to mention that today's Sunday....blah.

I have not gotten any of the resources I ordered for my ancient egyptian history essay in, so I guess at some point I should go through the sources I do have.

I am kind of disappointed in some people who said they would get in touch with me, but they never did. This is not an unexpected trend though. I should see them on Thursday anyways though.

BLAH.

Spring Break blahs

Well, spring break has started, and here I am at home planning to do all this homework for this week. These last couple of weeks have been absolutely terrible, and they, in compination with the changes in season are cauing me to get a little depressed.

I decided not to say anything to my ecology professor about the test because he would probably take it out on me later. I'll just work twice as hard on the next test as I did on the first and make sure that I can get an A so my grade goes back into solid A range.

However, I am considering going in to my physiology professor, because we had our tests yesterday and since it's just multiple choice, they get graded pretty qucikly. The format for the test is kind of weird, as we do the test once with just our brains and then a second time we can use anything except other people or the internet. I went through that test and checked every answer this time, and I missed between 5 and seven on the first test (I looked at the answer key which he posts later and found out it was five) and I corrected them. I looked at the key and fortuantely I can remember what I put down, and there's no way I could have gotten less than a 95%, but I checked my posted grade and it says 88%. I was pretty ticked last night, to be honest. I won't jump to any conclusions yet, but my guess is that he might have looked at my second test grade and just put it down again. I can't know for sure until after break.

Last night I was super down. Today is not so bad because rainy weather cheers me up a bit. I have been thinking that I might have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), where when the weather changes, people get depressed. I was there earlier in the semester after our 3000 blizzards and it started to warm up into the 50's and 60's. This happens like every year where I just am on a major downer for about 3-5 weeks because of the weather and probably stress.

I intend on getting so far ahead this break that it's not even funny. I finished my physics for this break last night and took notes on a whole bunch of reading for ecology (pronghorn...joy). Today, I'm going to finish all of my notes on the ecology reading so that I can get that out of the way before this next test (April 10 I think) and then I'm going to read all of my stuff for Civil War for basically the rest of the semester, which is just one book, and I'm going to try to work on my next pre-lab for Organic Chemistry. Tomorrow (Sunday), I'm going to do all the labs for physiology for the rest of the semester (which is 5), the fourth case study, and my anthropology homework and finish one of the anthro books. Then on Monday I'll do all of my reading for Ancient Egyptian History and then I'll do all of my notes for the essay, which I will write on Tuesday. Wednesday is for studying Cell Biology, Thursday I'm going to Denver, Friday I'm cooking for the nurses at the hospital, and Sunday is for Organic Chemistry. Saturday is for editing and anything else I can think to do.

Throughout this, I have a few plans. I would like to work on some cross stitching, but my hand hurts so badly today that I probably won't do that much, if any. After I post this, I'm going with the wind because that's a good movie. I actually enjoyed it A LOT because it's really funny when you know the details of what happens in the Civil War and Reconstruction.

Alright, time to work.

Ok, so I'm already having scheduling issues, which I won't go into until I look through all the options again and again. I tend to obsess too much about these things when I should be focusing on other things, like my physiology test.

My physcis test last night went pretty well. There were only three or four of the multiple choice section that I was not really sure about, and am pretty glad that I was only confused on one of the problems because I and my calculator didn't know one of the conversion factors.

I'm irritated by this computer in front of me. The school has Star Trek people who run the IT and they can't spell the character's names correctly. So I have Serek in front of me when they guy's name was spelled "SAREK". This is why nerds need to take more English and grammar based classes.

It's hard to believe that after this break, there are only like 40 days left in the semester. I plan on doing one hell of a lot of work over break, including all kinds of reading, essays, and studying.
I'm going to kick April's ass.

I am ALMOST done with my cross stitch. I have about 2 hours left of actual cross stitching before I do the embroidery in addition to it. My guess is that I'll be done maybe Monday. Then I have a few that I could start. After all this embroidery, I want a piece that requires next to none, so I will look for that.

Typically, I'm not much of a sports person, but I have an incredible fondness for the Vancouver Canucks, and I should mention that as of the last three months, they've basically whooped ass. I thought the universe would like to know that.

I am in the middle of a dilemma. On my awful ecology exam, there is the possibility of me getting two points back if I go in and argue with the teacher about it. I brought it up in class, but he pretty much shot down my argument. I have evidence to support my point, but I think he'll react badly and I might get on his bad side. Besides, I am only an undergrad, I have no authority over a Ph.D. I'm leaning towards letting the two points slide, because I would rather avoid conflict.

SCHEDULING!!!!

Fall schedules are out!!! YAY!

Some good news and some bad news. Good news is that I'm going to be a loser again, bad news is that course conflicts mean that I have to go for a fourth year. Poo...sort of. Now that I have to go to school a 4th year, I can get those minors that I want to get.

My schedule is pretty much worked out for summer and fall. I may have to make some changes if biochemistry is funked up this summer (which it had better not be).

This is my summer schedule:
BIOL 481: MTWR 800-1040 (Biochem I)
PES 112: MW 1235-420 (Physics II)
HIST 300: TR 1050-140 (World War I)
MATH 215: TR 150-420 (Discrete Math)
HUM 399: MTWRF 800-500 (Humanities Requirement--I'm still not sure about this one)
That's 13 hours, not counting the Humanities, which is before the summer semester starts. The Biochemistry ends early, so I only have 13 credits for about a month, then it drops to 10.

This is my fall schedule:
BIOL 300: MW 1050-1205 (Research Methods)
BIOL 323: MW 140-255 (Plant Physiology)
BIOL 383 (ONLINE) (Genetics)
PHIL 112: MW 925-1040 (Critical Thinking)
SPAN 300: TR 925-1040 (Spanish Grammar)
CHEM 417: TR 1050-1205+140-420 (Analytical Chemistry)
HIST 411: T 140-420 (Early Medieval Europe)
HIST 499: F 1050-130 (Senior Thesis)
That's 25 hours, much more managable than what I am doing right now.

After these two semesters, this is what I would have left to do before graduation:
Philosophy: 3 Hours
Biology: 6 Hours (really like 9)
Chemistry: 8 Hours
History: COMPLETE
Spanish: 6 Hours (MINOR)
Physics: 12 Hours (MINOR?)
Math: 13 Hours (MINOR?)
Political Science: 15 Hours (MINOR?)

I love it when my schedules are ready so quickly. Time to study for physics.

Less than a week until Spring Break! WOOT!

I'm posting twice in a two day period, which means that I am procrastinating again.

Today has been kind of meh. Nothing really astounding happened today. Well, I know I did my case study for Physiology right this time, so that bodes well. This is the basic summary of my loser day:

6:30--Drag myself out of bed
6:35--Eat breakfast
6:45--Finish Reading Newspaper
6:50--Get school stuff together
6:59--Change clothes
7:03--Sit on floor with dog
7:15--Realize lateness and leave for school
7:25--Get to school massively early, begin sewing
7:45--Girls come in and talk about case study
8:00--Physiology on Muscles (STILL)
8:08--First look at clock
8:25--First yawn
8:45--Check assignments for week
9:15--Leave class for library
9:17--Check email
9:25--Go to work, more sewing
10:01--Tutor 102 students for about half an hour
10:35--Sew, study for Chemistry
12:07--Leave work
12:09--Get to Chemistry
12:15--Take Chemistry Quiz
12:19--Finish Chemistry Quiz, return to sewing
12:30--Listen to reasons why I should not do crack
12:35--Chapter 22 lecture
1:30--Rush home, listening to Dr. Laura
1:45--Get home, enter Tazmanian Devil mode (eat everything in sight)
1:50--Eat third Rice Krispies Treat
2:20--Print Civil War Paper
2:30--Leave for school
2:45--Get to school
3:05--Physics Class, aka Civil War editing
4:20--Leave Physics, go to Anthropology
4:45--Watch movie while doing homework
6:30--Leave Anthropology
6:40--Get home, Tazmanian Devil stage 2
7:00--Get sewing material, watch Dancing with the Stars
9:00--Get on computer--enter procrastination phase.

I was listening to the radio on the way home, and I'm in a stage right now where I don't like listening to music, but rather news and talk material. I was not interested in NPR's Iraq stuff, nor was I interested in KRDO's discussion on college boozing.

So as I was flipping through the radio stations, I heard another talk one, and I didn't look at the station signal thing, so I didn't know it, but I had 100.7 on the radio, and what I heard really disappointed me. For those of you that don't know, 100.7 is one of like a billion evangelical radio stations in Colo Sprs. They were talking about how through love and the Bible we can fix people and turn them straight and crap like that. While I'm not gay, I have come to sympathize with them a lot, because they're pretty heavily discriminated against. I don't care about marriage because that's really a religious thing, but I really don't mind them having equal partnership rights as straight couples, and I really do not mind them having adopted children. I actually favor them having adopted children, because I think that it's first important that children have stable loving homes, and I could care less who the parents or guardians are, so long as they are not hardened criminals or incompetent to do so.

I think my scientific mind understands that gay people are born that way, and that no matter how you treat them, you cannot destroy their fundamental biology. Any insinuation that one can use eugenics to fix them is one of the pinnacles of evil. That baptist preacher who said we can use science to fix them is abhorrent. How selfish is it to reserve that technology, not to try to find treatments for things like Down's Syndrome, but rather to fix gay children?

Then there was an article in the paper today baout how 20-40% of teens on the streets are either gay, bi, or transgendered. What kind of parent would let their child do that, or even worse, throw them out of their homes because they're not straight? Where is the morality that these people preach? Sounds like hypocracy to me.

My soapbox for today. Time for Civil War

The week of hell

This week is again a week of hell. It could have been worse though, had my Egyptian History teacher not moved the next essay to the Tuesday after Spring Break. This week, I have a quiz tomorrow in OChem, which I'm just not prepared for, my History midterm in Civil War on Tuesday, a physics exam, which I am not ready for, on Wednesday, and a physiology exam on Friday.

I wrote my first draft of Civil War, and I'm going to spend most of tomorrow editing it frantically. Tuesday should actually be a pretty slow day, as my two morning classes will be lectures and my afternoon ones will be a mix of lectures and watching Gone with the Wind. I'm kind of excited to see this movie, as I have not yet had the opportunity to do so. Wednesday is frantic studying for Physics, and Thursday is the same for physiology. I had pretty disappointing scores on the previous tests (a 90 in physics and an 88 in physiology), and I really need a stronger showing, ergo, study.

I wish I could do the thing again where I didn't have to study.

I did A LOT of cross stitching this weekend. I finished the lady (which I think I mentioned), and I have almost all of the background done. Once I finish that, I have to do the tree behind the lady, and then I have to do all my embellishments (French knots, Lazy Daisy's, and backstitches), and then I can start on my awesomeness picture. After that, I have a wolf and a cheetah to do, followed by a giraffe and the Battle of Gettysburg one.

This basically carries me to August.
I saw a few REALLY awesome ones I would like to do.

So yeah.

Scheduling time

I know that despite the recent struggels of academic life, I have not managed to discuss summer classes. This is absolutely stunning, in my opinion, given my massive propensity towards discussing this utter triviality.

So, this summer, there are a variety of options open to me for classes. These are the current ones which I am considering:

BIOL 481: Biochemistry I (No times scheduled)
MATH 235: Calculus III (TR 10:50-1:40, F 10:50-12:10)
MATH 313: Intro to Linear Algebra (MWF 800-1040)
MATH 215: Discrete Math (TR 1:50-4:30)
HIST 300: World War I (TR 10:50-1:40)
PES 112: General Physics II (MW 1:40-4:20)
HUM 399: Humanities Required Elective (MTWRF 8:00-5:00 from 5/21-5/26)

I definitely have to take physics, there's no question about that. Biochemistry I would definitely take, but since I have no idea what time that's going to occur, I have to assume that it might be dropped. I really would love to take that World War I class, as there are always interesting and new things to explore about tings like that. I could, for example, look at the role of Montenegro in the war, or something snazzy like that. If Biochem is not offered, then I would probably take Discrete Math simply because it is right after WWI. I would like to get a job this summer, so I'm somewhat tentative about adding something like Linear Algebra. I definitely would consider it.

I currently have a lot of hours left to get. I am right now planning for catastrophe mode and I have some kind of course conflict (which I secretly want to happen). If there is one, then my plan is to get my 4 majors and minors in physics, math, and Spanish.

Assuming that the catastrophe occurs, then I might load up this summer. Scholarships are also pretty key for me taking a lot this summer. If scholarships are tight, then there's a possibility that I would only take physics and history and cram as many hours around that as I could.

If I have a lot of scholarships, then I would load up. I might even take 13 hours, but that's a LOT for a summer session. I had a period where I was doing 8, and that was not too bad.

I wish they put out more information. I need to put my planning energies to good use.

Other than that, I've gotten a healthy amount of work done today. Quite a bit of cross-stitch/non cross stitch. I'm right now doing hald stitches (which drive me insane) to get most of my background done on my geisha. I've actually finished the woman (except for detail).

I did some cooking today (Apple cake, an ok concoction).

So I should do some homework.

Recovering

Despite the terribleness of my ecology exam, I am on the mend. If the exam was just before spring break, I would probably be more visibly upset, but given that I have so much due next week, I don't really have the opportunity to be upset.

I have the potential to get a lot of work done today and tomorrow. I only have a midterm tomorrow in ochem lab and that only takes about 10 minutes. Besides that, I don't have too much to worry about between now and the end of the week. Next week is hell, but I've begun collecting evidence for my Civil War essay due on Tuesday. I'll probably end up writing about women in the Civil War, and I would like to focus specifically on women involved in the actual conflict, but I doubt that he would appreciate such a focus.

Between now and Sunday, these are the things I intend on completing: Civil War Essay, Physiology Lab and Case Study, OChem Pre Lab for Friday, homework, and anything else I can come up with.

I've gotten a lot of crossstitching done in the last couple of days due to large gaps in my schedule and me not bringing enough HW to do.

Anyways, c'est la vie.

Wow, this week has been pretty bad.

I'v been working my butt off all week, and it's only Wednesday. I'm trying to diminish the load against me for Spring Break while attempting to do well on all the crap I have to do between now and next Friday, which is a lot.

In the last few days, I have taken two exams, done like a million dinky assignments for my different classes, read a ton, studied a ton, and finished my lab. Today, I finished my chem lab, and I still have to finish my Egyptian History reading for the rest of this half of the semester, my 7th physics homework, probably my 8th chemistry homework, and something else which I might find productive. After I do this, I'll be done with all of my ecology, Egyptian History, Anthropology, and Cell Bio to the beginning of Spring Break.

Grades have been mixed this week. I did incredibly well on my history papers, earning A's on both with lots of positive comments on my work. I'm like 99% sure I got an A on my Anthropology exam, and the extra credit I did for this week will bolster my grade enough in case I didn't get an A. I got a 96% on my last chem lab, and a 90% on my last homework. The really bad one though, is ecology. I got a 78% on the test, which is the first time in college I've gotten below an A on a test and the first time I've gotten below a B on anything. I guessed on so many. I would have gotten a much higher grade if I didn't change like 4 of my answers. Fuck. I am so freaking glad that I got a 100 on that first test, because right now I have an 89% in that class. Although it's a B, my first test is basically saving my ass already. I'm going to have to do better on the next one, and fortunately, it's not in the middle of like a million other things like the one I took yesterday was.

So I kind of suck right now. I might not go to Egyptian History tomorrow so I can make up for my suckiness in other things. I don't know though. Friday will be somewhat better as I have my chem lab midterm, whcih I head is astoundingly easy, not to mention incredibly short. After Friday, I'll be at 77% on my clickers for the semester, which means that I only need to answer like 21 more clickers after that to assure my 100% on clickers.

Anyways, I'm going to update more about life at work tonight (joy). Time for some more work.

I am becoming so terrible at this updating thing. I used to do it twice or even three times a day and now I'm lucky if I manage to post twice or three times in a week.

28 credits, definitely do not recommend it to anyone interested. 21 is manageable, but 28 is ridiculous and insane.

Chances are I'll probably do this to myself again.

This weekend was filled by little advancement in my goals. I still have everything hanging over my head that was there on Friday or whenever I last updated. I have in the last three days managed to do pretty much everything between now and Spring Break for Anthropology. I have about 10 more pages to read right now, which I will finish after posting, and I have to actually take my midterm tonight. Basically, after today, I've got one class finished before Spring Break begins. I did a lot of reading for Egyptian History, including the completion of one of our 8 or 9 books (ridiculous number of books for a class), but didn't get any work started on our essay, which is now due after Spring Break. I had hoped to finish it before spring break, but with how much I have to do in the next two weeks, that's probably not possible.

I'm seriously far behind in reading for Civil War, and I have my midterm due next week. Blah. I didn't do anything for Physiology, for which I have three things hanging over my head. I got a chemistry homework done, reducing my work to two homeworks and a quiz before spring break. Chem lab--nada, cell bio--nada, ecology--made my flash cards from which I will study tonight while I'm in Physics and Anthropology.

I doubt I'll get a 100% on this test like I got on the last one. My guess is that I'll probably get like an 85%.

What did I do if I didn't do homework? Well, I did a MASSIVE amount of cross-stitching, a LOT of Star Trek, and a general conclusion that my life sucks.

I went Sound of Music, again.

Twelve days until Spring Break....gah.

Decisions, decisions

I hate how many decisions I have to make over the next 1-2 years.
I don't think that Peace Corps is an option. I would be ok with a one year commitment, but not a 27 month commitment. I do have things that I really want to do with my life.

I'm coming to the determiniation that I might have to go to college an additional year because of possible class conflicts. Because of this, if I go a fourth year, I'll be getting two minors on top of my 4 majors. I would definitely do a Spanish minor as I only need 9 hours to get that, so that's an easy addition. Besides that, there are a lot of options open to me. I could get a minor in Art History (18 hours), Energy Science (18 Hours), English (21 Hours), Geography (18 Hours), Physics (16 hours after summer), Politics (15 hours), or psychology (16 Hours) in LAS. I have a few options outside LAS, and I'm not sure how thrilled I am about those. I could do math, which would be 16 hours, or some kind of business thing which would be 18-24 hours.

I know there are a few that I do not want to do at all: Art History, Psychology, Business. Geography, Math, and the non-LAS options are not really big for me either.

If I had to choose some kind of order, this is what, right now, I would be interested in:
1) Energy Science, 2) English, 3) Politics, 4)Physics. Physics is really low because I would have to take calculus III, which I obviously do not want to take. Politics is low because it's so frustrating dealing with other students in the classes. English is kind of meh because it's so much I would have to take. Energy Science gives me some science to balance my three humanities/social science majors/minors.

I just don't know right now what the next semesters will bring work-wise.

Then on top of that, I have been somewhat discouraged. Despite doing well in my classes (for example, I am guaranteed to pass Chemistry, though with a very low D) so far, I think the overwhelmingness of it all has been beating me down. Aside from school and hospital work, there's very little that I actually do.

I would like some reassurance that the greatness I see for myself is worth compromising myself now. Perhaps I need another mountain escape to really figure out what the hell I'm doing. I need focus and concentration.

However, there are things hanging over my head for the rest of this half of the semester:
BIOL 321: 1 Lab, 1 Exam, 1 Case Study, 4 Attendances
BIOL 370: 1 Exam
CHEM 332: 3 Homeworks, at least 20 clickers, and a quiz
CHEM 334: 2 Labs and a Midterm
ANTH 104: Midterm, Assignment II, and Extra Credit junk
PES 111: 1 Homework+1 Exam
HIST 453: Midterm
HIST 300: Essay II

After that, things start going downhill. This weekend, I am definitely going to get a lot done, including my Bio Lab, a Chem HW, my Chem Lab for this week, all the outside of class Anthropology assignments, and my research for my second essay.

Perhaps I should go all sound of music again.

Disappointment

No periodic table for me. I got a 96% on the test, so I'm pretty bummed about that. Maybe next time. I've got two more chances, and if I screw both of them up, then I'll just have to buy one. Average on the test was like a 60%, so I didn't do terribly, but I really wanted that periodic table.

88% on physiology test and a 92.5% on the Case Study. I'm kind of glad that I took that class so far, because it's making me see that I am not as big a fan of anatomy as I used to be. I didn't really study for this test and I did the case study somewhat haphazardly, so I have no complaints about my grades there.

What is the real shocker is that I got a 96% on my cell biology test, the class where the professor scares the hell out of me and he's supposed to be the grader from hell. Yet I got a 96%. Not the highest grade in the class, but a lot higher than some other people who got like 47%.

I get my Ancient Egypt essay back this week, and I'm not terribly excited about that. I don't think I did very well on it.

I actually don't have a hell of a lot left to do for this week, so that means that I will have a lot of time to get those thigns that I do have to do done, mostly tomorrow.
I have a meeting with an advisor tomorrow. I'm having a hard time deciding whether I want to go another year or not, and I wanted to go over some of the upcoming requirements for the BS in Biology and anything else that I might get out of what could be two years.

I would love to have just five days to get all the homework I have for this half of the semester done. I could do it all in 5 days. Meh.

Monday Monday (dah dah dah dah dah)

I actually hate that song. Anyways, I figured that I should provide a more in-depth update for this weekend and thus far this morning, as my message yesterday was quite cryptic. Actually, it wasn't. I just like that word.

So, on Saturday, Science Olympiad stuff. Highest grade that anyone got was a 70%. DAMN. We didn't think we made it that hard.
My sister won two first places and two second places and Palmer took first for the second year in a row, and this one guy on her team went "I knew Rosie (Erin's friend who medaled in all three events she was int) and I (Geoffrey, who got two medals, 2nd and 3rd in stupid events) could carry the team." Um seriously? Seriously. He did very little. My sister and Rosie carried the team. Seriously.

Sunday, I was, by many more conservative definitions, bad. I was going to go to church at 7:45, but my dad went, and I like to go to church by myself because I can stand in the back, and leave after communion, and not hold hands and all that good stuff. Well, I decided to go to 9:45 then, and it was initially my favorite person in the world (only not). Then, I got this sudden inspiration to just do a Sound of Music thing, and so after the deacon finished the gospel, I left. And I drove for miles and miles and miles, all the way to Divide. I hadn't left town since January, and I have not had one of those kind of drives where you say "screw the world" and do whatever the hell you want since I was at Regis. Of course, it probably didn't help that I decided that this point would be wonderful for a musical entourage. On the way back, I stopped at the Donut Mill in Woodland Park and had, of course, AMAZING piles of carbohydrates and fat. My car got some good highway miles, which actually really helps the car run better, I got to have some fresh air, and I want to do this again soon. If this weekend is not too ooky, then I'm going to go farther. By ooky, I mean too much school stuff and too bad weather. However, next week, I have three exams which may delay this. I don't know just yet, however the possibility is certainly exciting.

I have studied my ass off for chemistry. However, I didn't do so much on my physiology, on which I got a 94%, or I'm pretty sure I did. I'm not really phased because there are so many points in the class that one bad test is meh. However, I am seriously concerned for Chemistry because I want a G.D. Periodic Table. More than like anything right now. I have all kinds of mechanisms engrained into my head, reactions running rampantly, and IUPAC names scattered everywhere. I'm ready for organix syntheses and all kinds of other crap. I freaking want to get a 102 or whatever so that I can get the periodic table keychain. Dammit, I freaking want it like now.

Anyways, that's thre pressing issues of the morning, this afternoon I have to somehow survive physics and anthropology (blah) and then when I get home, I have to finish my Civil War paper. Stupid being here-ness.

Sunday night procrastination

Um, so I have like maybe 20 minutes to do a quick post before Erin comes in here and goes all "Argh I need the computer, blah blah blah!"

I looked online aearlier this week and noticed that this month Hayley Westenra has a new album coming out. If I have any money left by then, I should consider purchasing it.

The last few days have been pretty argh for me. Friday, I was majorly stressed out because I was trying to make Spanakopita and I just could not get the phyllo dough to work out right because I didn't buy the Safeway brand. Not to mention that I had intended to do most of my civil war paper on Friday and Thursday and got none of it done.

Saturday was pretty much entirely occupied by Science Olympiad work, however, I did manage to do most of my studying for physiology and all of my physics homework.

I did however get a significant amount of cross stitching done (yay), and my geisha is starting to come together.

So today I didn't get a whole lot done as I spent like three hours studying for Chemistry. I also did something for the first time today, but I don't really want to write about it right now, so I'll probably write about it later, since it's nothing bad.

Then for the last three hours I have no idea what the hell I have been doing.
Tonight's agenda:
7-8=Amazing Race
8-9=Desperate Housewives
9-11=Civil War Essay (still have not started it)
11-12=Human Physiology studying

So, I think I'm screwed.

Well, somehow, I have survived the last week and made it to March 1. It's so hard to believe right now that two months out of this year are already gone.

In 18 months, I turn 21. That now seems suddenly close.

I have managed to complete pretty much everything I wanted to complete, despite only getting 5 hours of sleep the night before last and only 4 hours last night. Suffice it to say, I am le tired.

Whether things are going to turn out well, I will not know for a while, and in the meantime, there is plenty for me to do. Tonight, I actually have quite a bit of work to do, namely finishing the Kane Scholarship (for which I still have no idea what I will write, maybe writing that 74 page paper on Stalin, and how it did something. I don't know. I was thinking some kind of failure that I might have garnered, but I haven't really failed anything in the last year. I did drop out of Christian Existentialism (oh my god, the worst philosophy ever to have existed), but the teacher and the material were both terrible.

I have had no physical diseases or mental ones for which I have thus far been diagnosed. No trauma, no anything, nothing that would influence my career and my personal life (of which I have none). I hate my sister right now for taking the only topic available to me. I'll come up with something.

It looks like we might get some more snow before this afternoon.

Anyways, I have no life. I just have so much difficulty determining what to write. Laters.